Don’t you just hate it when you go to sleep with white bedsheets and wake up with the Japanese flag?
Cis boys love to talk about their cocks.
It’s an obsession with them.
Scrawling the bloody things all over text books and on walls.
As if to say ‘this is ours’.
'Our territory. Our world. You best beware here.'
Measuring with rulers in the back of maths class.
While harassed supply teachers sigh:
'Well, boys will be boys.'
Yet the moment I say a word about my vagina,
The world stops still.
And collectively tuts,
And frowns down at me like a scandalised Victorian schoolteacher.
'I have a vagina'.
They cringe and grimace.
They do not know where to look.
'Every month it bleeds.'
You can hear them can’t you?
The men gagging and cursing.
Because I have brazenly revealed the truth of myself.
That I am a living being and a living body.
Not a toy,
Pretty and smooth and pleasing.
Presented for their fickle consumption.
'I can achieve orgasm without any of you.'
Glasses drop, shatter.
Eyes are wide like saucers.
Someone faints with horror.
After some deliberation a single boy steps forward.
There is a look to his eyes,
A greedy, predatory glint I would love to carve out of them.
Before he becomes a man and a monster.
The first time I ever saw a woman kissing a woman,
Was in the hands of an immature, sweaty boy,
Under the desk beside me.
On a phone the teacher pretended not to notice.
One of the lads stuck his crotch in my face,
To punish me for the crime of sitting on a public bench,
He fancied reclining on.
I was a ‘bitch’,
Because I once declared not one of those boys,
Would ever be good enough for me.
(Now we return to our scene).
The ringleader smirks,
As though he would crush me in his fist,
Or see me trussed up like a plastic Barbie.
( I don’t think he has decided yet).
'Okay then, we'll watch' he announces.
'Fuck off. No.'
And close the curtains.
The Boys At School by Claudia Boleyn
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- My cat fucking bleeds out
- I can’t wear white
- My face breaks out
- I question my gender 10x a day
- Sex doesn’t happen
- Sweats make my ass look fat
- Skinny jeans don’t fit
- Tired no matter how much sleep I get
- Sore tits
- Wanting to fuck anything and everything
I AM ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN
I AM ALLOWED TO CRY OVER SIMPLE THINGS
I AM FULLY AWARE THAT OTHER PEOPLE HAVE PROBLEMS TOO AND THEY ARE PROBABLY WORSE OFF THAN I AM
DO NOT REMIND ME OF THAT WHEN I AM UPSET
MY FEELINGS ARE VALID
I AM ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN
WHAT IS SIMPLE TO YOU COULD BE STRESSFUL TO ME
STOP TELLING ME TO THINK ABOUT PEOPLE THAT HAVE IT WORSE
STOP STOP STOP